I felt that I was placed in a very difficult position. On the one hand,
I loved this beautiful young woman more than words can convey any idea
of. She seemed to be a part of my life. I would have gladly suffered any
pain or torture, if by so doing it would have afforded her one moment of
pleasure. On the other hand, I had sworn most solemnly to the great
Sagewoman that I would devote the remainder of my natural life to the
dissemination of the principles in which she had instructed me. I often
wondered at my strange predicament. Here I was being censured by the
reincarnated soul of the great Sage-woman for carrying out the very work
she taught me, and for fulfilling my promise to her.
The climax of this peculiar situation was reached one night at our
meeting place in the park. Arletta had sent me an urgent despatch to
come and see her without fail, and then she had stated that it was her
intention to leave New York the next day on a protracted trip through
Europe. She said she had come to bid me good-bye, and that it was to be
good-bye forever, as she never intended to see me again. She appeared
depressed and sad upon this occasion, and her eyes were filled with
tears. In answer to my inquiry, as to her reason for leaving me in this
way, she said that it was because she could not uphold me in my crusade
against all recognized principles of religious beliefs.
She told me frankly that she loved me and that she cared nothing for any
other man in the world except myself, but that she could not do
otherwise than go away and forget me.
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